Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And do not rely on your own insight or understandingIn all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him,
And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way]. – Proverbs 3:5-6 AMP
  The picture you see here is a pendant that my husband bought for me about a year ago. I absolutely love dragonflies. I have learned to love them even more in the past few years. I was always fascinated at the way they move and the way they adjust to the winds and how they can maneuver through almost anything.
I am seer and God has always taught me and shown me things through out my life in different ways. Sometimes it is through dreams, visions or sometimes it is through something I see in the natural. Anyways, a couple years ago I was outside taking a walk and there were a few dragonflies flying around me. I stopped to watch them and one flew right on front of my face and just stayed there for a few seconds, just long enough for me to see it and laugh. I thought it was the cutest thing. So as I was watching them fly around me and then fly away, I heard the Lord tell me that the way they move and the way they can adjust quickly and maneuver through changing winds is what he has been cultivating in me through out my life. It was like I got a download at that moment as He showed me all the things He has brought me through and how He has been allowing so many things to break me out of my comfortable place to bring me to a place where I surrender total control to Him.
   You see, I used to be a control freak. I didn’t realize it until I got married but I had to have everything planned out and know exactly what was going to happen all the time. If anything disrupted my plans or my flow I was not happy and neither was my family. There’s nothing wrong with planning but we have to be open to allow God to interrupt “our” plans if He wants to. There was a season in my life, about 4 – 5 years ago, when it felt like everything around me was being uprooted and so many things were changing all at the same time. It was so overwhelming at first because I still was struggling with the need to be in control. I had to leave the job I had because of health reasons and my husband who had been working 2 jobs for a long time got a new job. I was able to go to school after a door of opportunity opened for me. There was a lot more, but you get the picture. So much changed when I really learned to let go in this area. I became a better wife and a better mother. I used to be more rigid with my kids and expected so much more than I should have from them. As I grew in this area I learned that it was ok to let my kids be kids and to take things as they came and not freak out or get angry when accidents happened. I hadn’t realized how much this need to be in control had affected me and those around me until I was free from it. I can truly say I am a much happier person now than I was back then and I’m sure my husband and my kids are as well.
   I had to learn through this time to submit and learn to be obedient to my Father’s leading. There were things that He asked of me that didn’t make sense in my natural mind but He was teaching me to trust Him and learn His voice. I also had to learn to be free from the opinions of man because there were many who did not understand but I knew that I was hearing from God and He continued to confirm His word. There were also many doors that opened as a result of our obedience. This was the start of a very long season for our family but it has been such an amazing learning process. My whole mindset changed as well. I used to get upset and worry when unexpected things happened and had to learn to let the worry and fear go and trust in God. Now my mindset is, “Ok, so what do we need to do or how do we need to adjust to make this work..” It is so liberating when you can learn to let go and learn to rides the winds of this life with total trust in the Father.
   You see, control is based in fear and it is deceiving. You think you have control but you really never do. You are really in bondage and the only way you can be truly free is to surrender all to the Lord. If you think about it, He knows the future. Who better to trust in than Him. He is so faithful and will never let you down. If you choose to let go and take His hand, He will lead you every step of the way and will teach you more than you can imagine. Looking back at my life, I am so thankful for all that I have been through because it has helped to shape me and mold me into the woman that God has designed me to be. I am still a work in progress but I am so much further along than I was and now I can fly like a dragonfly.
~ Dez

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